Mixed Emotions

Today I went for my 6 week ultrasound and we found we are having identical twins. We were very happy to see the two heartbeats but as our RE said identical twins tend to have much more complications than fraternal twins. I have another ultrasound scheduled after two weeks and then we will be able to figure out whether there is structural abnormalities and whether they have the same amniotic sac or different amniotic sacs. There is another potential problem called Twin-to-twin transfusion syndrome where one twin can receive much more blood than the other which is bad for both of them. The good news is my babies seem to be quite far from each other. This also means we have to choose a pretty good hospital that has a good neonatal unit. Our RE said that the hospital closest to our house will be able to handle single or fraternal twins but maybe they are not well equipped enough to handle identical twins. So we have to choose another hospital which is 14 miles away. Fortunately, that is not very far off and that is an excellent hospital. So we are happy and apprehensive at the same time - happy that we saw two heartbeats and apprehensive about what the future holds for us.

5 weeks

Today I am 5 weeks pregnant. My second HCG (which was last Friday) was 541 and my RE said that the progesterone and estrogen levels were perfect. However, I have read so many horror stories on so many blogs that I am still scared. I have no pregnancy symptoms other than sore boobs which is due to the progesterone I am taking. It still does not feel real. I think I will believe I am pregnant once I see the ultrasound next week. In the meantime I was busy working as I had tons of work piled up. I did not do much before the beta... so I was making up for that. I also started reading some pregnancy books.

Today is also the National Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day in the United States. I am praying for all of you who have lost a child.

After two years.....

finally I am pregnant. My RE called me up just now and said I have HCG of 294. She said it is pretty good and I have to go for another blood test on Friday.
I cannot believe it yet. I remember it was in October 2006 I went for a prenatal consult with a doctor and started taking prenatal vitamins. My DH and I were both working from home today and so he was there when the phone call came. We are both very, very happy but I think it will take some time before the whole thing finally sinks in. And I want to thank all of you for your prayers and support. You all are wonderful.

Countdown begins

It's 24 more hours to my blood test. I decided not to POAS... I will be waiting for the phone call to know the result. Surprisingly I am feeling pretty calm compared how I felt during my IUIs. So tomorrow will be either a very happy day or very sad day for us. Whatever happens, I will let you folks know. But please, please pray for me.

Cautiously Optimistic

I have been having mild AF-like cramping for the last couple of days. I am hoping that this is a sign of the embryos implanting and making themselves comfy in the uterus. I also went for my acupuncture today and my acupuncturist said that my pulse looked good and he asked me to make appointments for next Monday and Thursday (my blood test is on Wednesday). Maybe I am reading a little too much but this makes me feel a little better. The final reason for feeling optimistic is I came across someone's blog today who did not have any embryos for freezing but in spite of that she is pregnant. That gives me hope and I am trying to be more positive.

Speaking of blogs, I am addicted to IF blogs now. I am checking for updates all the time and not getting much work done. I am planning to keep myself busy this weekend so that I do not keep thinking of the outcome of this IVF.